I wish you could hear the sounds that I am hearing.
I wish you could feel these feelings.
Realization, to live is to die and to die is to have lived.
Youth will never remain young.
Cigarettes are the leading cause of preventable death in the world. Everyone knows that they kill and harm you. But I think that some people really like dying. There are those that enjoy the theory that they are slowly, slowly killing themselves. They reel in these fantasies.
I hope you’re all enjoying this evening, my friends.
Excuse me for these posts that seem extraterrestrial or trivial or meaningless. I am trying to get into the mindset of sharing my thoughts with someone (no one) electronically. Usually things like this just linger in my brain cells and are soon whisked away by newer, fresher thoughts and memories.
I’m not quite sure how you expect this to turn out but I really, really want it to last. I’m just afraid that I am pushing us to the brink of no return. I hope you don’t feel the same way, and don’t take it personally when I do things that you might blame yourself for. Because it’s never, ever your fault. I could never hold you accountable for anything bad in my life because you are the foundation of everything that I love. I have loved you for a long time now and even if we split ways in the future, I won’t forget these times because they are some of the best I will probably ever have. You won’t ever see the things that I am writing here but maybe you’ll sense these feelings one day and you’ll understand. I’m not trying to say anything else but I love you. And I love you once more. Please don’t stop being the person you are. I know that with time, things may change but don’t let that change your core. Don’t let it alter those embers that fuel you. I hope that one day you will be truly, undoubtedly happy, because that’s the day that I will be too.